So ready for us, so ready for us, the creature fear.
-Bon Iver
I’m feeling very down today. It’s just one of those days. I’m going to start getting my act in gear. I’m trying to hunt for a better job so I can start paying for my own things. I’m going to start slow though, get in the habit of paying the monthly bill of my car insurance, and then when I feel comfortable with that, hopefully my parents will be happy to sign over my car to me, so I won’t have to worry about that. In the mean time, I will save up my money so I can start looking for a place on my own. It will be a slow process, but it’s going to happen. I need to take off these training wheels and finally become independent. I feel to spoiled and I’m scared of the real world. Another thing, I can’t stay in this house anymore. I can’t live with these people. I don’t feel like we’re a family by any means. So many broken promises, so many lies…
I’ve always heard, “Home is where the heart is.” I’m not sure where my heart is, but I know damn well it’s not here.
